Discipline or Devotion?
Hello, Lovely,
What to know when you feel tired & alone feels so relevant right now.
Many of us have been in a deeply challenging cycle for a few years now, and we are starting to crack under the pressure and the passing of time, with no “relief”.
Since I am a firm believer in the concept of “nothing changes if nothing changes,” I have decided to do things a little differently this year.
I have been carefully going through all the invitations that I receive, and feeling into what is truly in alignment with ME, before accepting.
And most recently, I have been shown my next steps for expansion for this year.
I am choosing to do that differently, too.
I invite you to consider two words with me…
Discipline & Devotion
I used to live a life of discipline.
I was told that my “superpower” was showing up, regardless of how badly my world was falling apart. But I ultimately found that this was me, denying myself my needs and living in fear of loss.
I used to hustle and take pride in making sure I checked off ALL the things off my very extensive list each day. This lead me to total burnout, resentment, and disappointment.
I showed up consistently and “powerfully”, even when it was killing me inside.
I made sure I was seen, everyday, and in every possible way. But hiding under the surface of this, was an energy of desperately trying to prove myself and chasing “success”.
I had previously spent a lot of my life people pleasing and not letting myself to seen, so I was determined to finally be seen and heard.
But in the intense fire that I have been living in for the past 2 years, I have learned something that some are afraid to see..
Sometimes NOT being seen is the more powerful stance, because you are choosing to see YOURSELF, and not needing anyone else to validate that seeing.
Sometimes choosing to rest is more important than being perceived as “powerful,” because you are moving with the challenges of your current life, and supporting the needs of your human, even though your fearful mind is afraid of failing in your business.
Sometimes choosing prayerful patience and releasing expectations around time is the lesson to be learned, because incredible suffering can be found when we are in a “wait” period, and the things we desire are coming in slowly.
That one is a big one. There is a lot of shaming that can happen when our manifestations are taking longer than we “think” they “should” be.
What to know when you feel tired & alone is that some of us are not meant to be pushing, grinding away.
Some of us are meant to live a life that very few understand.
Some of us are called to softness and surrender at a depth that appears (at first glance) to be counterproductive.
Some of us are called to live a life of prayerful, mindful, intentional love and softness.
Some of us feel more aligned with prayerfulness and patience.
This is how devotion feels to me.
Devotion is a labor of love.
Devotion is endlessly patient.
Devotion never gives up.
Devotion requires an unwavering trust in universe.
Devotion requires a releasing of self doubt.
It loves and flows with the present moment, while still gently focused on where it is ultimately going.
This is the life that I feel called to live and show that is possible.
Devotion is loving yourself and your unique journey so deeply that you release ALL the noise of the outside world, and tune in exclusively to the song of your soul.
What to know when you feel tired & alone is that maybe you are trying too hard and need to soften into what it.
Devote yourself to softening to the process and release the time element that is causing you to doubt yourself and your ability to have your heart’s desires.
I choose devotion.
I choose softness.
I choose Love.
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Lovingly,
Suze
